OBLIVIOUS Lyrics

Back when I was younger

Felt like I was gonna die

Take a quick trip to the funeral home

Pass me by

The discoveries in my life

Is shit that makes me wanna cry

Like why was I the only kid pondering God

While the others were outside

Was I the weirdo

For not wanting to go outside

And play a hero

Made me wanna fly

Throw my fists at the door

A scared little kid

Having an crisis at four

What does it all mean

Other than the fact

I was seeing shit I hadn't

My nightmares and dreams

Making real life feel tragic

But I can't feel those feelings anymore

It just ain't equal

It's like I'm going to war

With myself

And the person that I wanna be

'Cause when I look in the mirror and see me

I don't see the one who I used to be

Or at least the one I pictured in my mind

Up until fourteen

My life had felt pretty divine

But that was the year

When I learned what the world was

A plotting scheme of the greatest powers

Shit they told us

In high school

Gave me less meaning than a blocked off fire hydrant

My mind stopped spitting ideas

Is that why I'm so violent?

Trying to juggle these knives of my thoughts

Just make it stop

My brain is on a collision course with my ego

The smallest being in mind

Since the idea to become an overachiever

'Cause them fuckers burnt me out

Spent all my work and time instead of sitting on the couch

And now my energy is gone

If I ain't in control of my emotions

Then why should I make songs

The chords aren't going together

My mind isn't tracking along

To all the thoughts

Asking me if all of this is wrong

If I'm even supposed to be writing songs

I should be a lawyer or something

But then I'd let down all my teachers

Telling me I'll do something

Put my name up in the limelight

But I don't feel right

Should I be dead

Or should I just be a screen-write

Or a teacher

Making less than minimum wage

Have me locked in a cage

Clock in for a 9-5 and hold in my rage

'Cause conformity

Always has me locked in my ways

But I wanna break out

Even if I barely leave the fucking house

I just know i need to find my own way to shout

'Cause I'm too deep to scream

Is the void surrounding me my real life

Or is it just a dream

I don't even know no more

I don't even know no more

I don't even know