Shaky Foundations Lyrics

So I've been scared for a while

For a long time actually

It's like I built a foundation

That is practically in pieces

Just assembled for aesthetics

For the sake of prosthetics

Walls walls walls we all know the story

It's taken time to see that this is me too

Balanced on the edge of who I want to be

And terrified of who I think I am

And what is true

What is true when we get down to it

What is true when we cut right through the bullshit

What is true when we don't hide

From the depths of who we are

I have to let the weight of your words

Sit on my chest sit with it

Cause I know that you say them with love

Let the courage it takes

To be honest, be real

Be honoured

Cause I know you say them with trust

That I'll hear you

That I won't shut you down

Shut you out

Even if I don't want to hear it

Cause my shaky foundations

Are no excuse for not building back up

Learning as tiny little humans

All the ways that were passed down from our older ones

So much fear control and bitterness

To survive is to hold back emotion

But what comes from emotional repression

We all bear scars from such long and brutal lessons

We cannot look into ourselves

Whether for compassion

Or reflection

What's my defense when I get down to it

What's my defense when I cut right through the bullshit

What's my defense when I don't hide

From the depths of who I am

I have to let the weight of your words

Sit on my chest sit with it

Cause I know that you say them with love

Let the courage it takes

To be honest, be real

Be honoured

Cause I know you say them with trust

That I'll hear you

That I won't shut you down

Shut you out

Even if I don't want to hear it

Cause my shaky foundations

Are no excuse for not building back up

Coming to terms

With the totality of our minds

Harbouring such beauty and strength

But that light is never without its' shadow side

It's blinding full beam on a lonely night

Road draped in the bones of the bodies that you hit

All the times you hadn't learnt to drive

You can't change what you've done or who you've been

The many things you didn't know

As you cling to the dregs in your cup

Instead of emptying

We're all sinking when we can't stop long enough to cry

Not just to acknowledge our pain

But to always ask why

Where did it come from

This free floating restless anxiety

Where did it come from

Our aggression our judgement our apathy

Where did it come from

This resistance to admitting we were wrong

That we didn't have the tools needed to make better decisions

You're not a monster for the wrath in your mind

But it's down to you to find a way

Climb down the rungs

And get inside

We're just layers and layers

Of repression domestication

The salt left after the heat of this

Endless war on our conscience

It's taken movement from our bodies

Fire from our minds

It's made us sick and contorted and many struggle to survive

Clogged up stagnant brimming with a need

Bigger than any one person

But we're dry heaving with the shame and defeat

Of loneliness

Gulping air into our lungs to breathe

Cause we believe we're all alone

We won't ever get any better

Always fucking up

Always pushing the ones we love away

Always afraid

So be ready to hear something hard

Be ready to claw at the earth

Searching for something buried and decomposing

You can't ever be ready really

But it's happening anyway

And I was raised in fear of the potency of my own being

And you were raised a man so I'm amazed

At all the things I hear you saying

All things considered

We're doing the best with what we've got

I have to let the weight of your words

Sit on my chest sit with it

Cause I know that you say them with love

Let the courage it takes

To be honest, be real

Be honoured

Cause I know you say them with trust

That I'll hear you

That I won't shut you down

Shut you out

Even if I don't want to hear it

Cause my shaky foundations

I have to let the weight of your words

Sit on my chest sit with it

Cause I know that you say them with love

Let the courage it takes

To be honest, be real

Be honoured

Cause I know you say them with trust

That I'll hear you

That I won't shut you down

Shut you out

Even if I don't want to hear it

Cause my shaky foundations

Are no excuse for not building back up