Not at the Party Lyrics

All my high school friends are hanging out tonight

But I'm still at home

Said I was on my way

Then I was running late

Now I can't make it at all

No one questioned my excuse

I guess I learned that trick from you

You taught me how to hide

You taught me how to lie

But I learned for myself why no one lets you inside

I'm not at the party cause you're there

And I've got no reason to be this scared

Cause it's been a year now and I should be okay

But I'm still crying in my car, sitting in my driveway

Yeah, I'm not at the party cause I'd see you, then I'd know

That you weren't scared to come tonight

Cause I still think about us and you don't

And all my college friends

I told them I just like being alone

But the truth is that I sit in my dorm room Friday nights

Just wishing that you'd call

And I don't need you to love me still

I just need you to hurt until I don't

'Til you're not all that I want

I don't care that things are over

I just care you're over it

I hate that you're not stuck in the past

Yeah, it's so unfair that

I'm not at the party cause you're there

And I've got no reason to be this scared

Cause it's been a year now and I should be okay

But I'm still crying in my car, sitting in my driveway

Yeah, I'm not at the party cause I'd see you, then I'd know

That you weren't scared to come tonight

Cause I still think about us and you don't

And I hide cause I'm hurt but what you do is worse

You hide from it

And I might not tell my friends, I'm not honest with them

But at least I'm honest with myself

I might be the one who took the fall

But at least I'm not the one who felt nothing at all

I'm not at the party cause you're there

And I've got no reason to be this scared

Cause it's been a year now and I should be okay

But I'm still crying in my car, sitting in my driveway

I'm not at the party cause you're there

And I've got no reason to be this scared

Cause it's been a year now and I should be okay

But I'm still crying in my car, sitting in my driveway

Yeah, I'm not at the party cause I'd see you, then I'd know

That you weren't scared to come tonight

Cause I still think about us and you don't

You don't, you don't (oh)

I still think about us and you don't