Even Myself Lyrics

I know

I know

Yeah

Know what I am

Know what I'll be

Ignorant words that I spoke as a teen

Hoping to be

Something I'm not

Someone I've lost

What was the cost?

Skydiving, nothing to pull

Come take a look at this world that I rule

Yeah

Uh Yeah

'Nother late night

Hours go by but it's the same time

Still the same life

Still the fake smile

Still the heavy heart

Still the blank eyes

It's lonely when the walls will only listen

Colder when it's solely your own mission

Know my focus slowly growing distant

That's how it go

She already saying that she done for the night

Nothing suffice

Walk on a tightrope I stumble I die

Crumbling pride as I'm wondering why that ain't nothing go right if I struggle and try

Wonder if I'm even made for this shit

Checking my streams like they changing and shit

Whole life never no taste of success

But I know why

I ain't never believed in myself

Am I even myself?

Fighting demons myself

Tryna be someone else like it'd free me from hell

Other's opinions really seep through my shell

I can't think for myself

From the clothes that I rock

To personas I cop

Even notes that I jot

Are just flows that I thought

That the people would want

Thinkin women would lust

And yet here I am stuck, no one giving a fuck

About nothing I'm doing

Lost touch with my music

I'm stumped and confused

Cause it's when I feel happiest

I start to lose all the hunger and drive

Who the fuck am I?

I don't know what's right

But I know something's wrong bout these thoughts in my head

Wake up to feel like I'm better off dead

Too far to go but my tank been on red

I'm exhausted, so lost

I don't know who I am

I've got too many fears

Eating at my conscious

Too many tears

Deep inside their bottle

I'm stuck inside this

Loop and I can't

Find no way to break out

I've got too many fears

Eating at my conscious

Too many tears

Deep inside their bottle

I'm stuck inside this

Loop and I can't

Find no way to break out

I've got too many fears

Eating at my conscious

Too many tears

Deep inside their bottle

I'm stuck inside this

Loop and I can't

Find no way to break out

I've got too many fears

Eating at my conscious

Too many tears

Deep inside their bottle

I'm stuck inside this

Loop and I can't

Find no way to break out