Never Conflicted Lyrics

I've been drinking

Thinking about a life that I could've had

That I should've had

I've been sinking

Can't breathe underwater, do I like that?

Or has my mind cracked?

I made decisions

Now I'm all out of luck

Chasing fate didn't really ever work

The past and the present all blend into one

And it's too late to escape

Cuz this cage got me stuck

But I don't wanna leave

Or do I wanna go?

There's a difference between

That I guess I'll never know

Gotta stick to my word

Or results won't show

But I haven't felt happy since many years ago

I see the world that you live in

I'm better off without it and I know I wouldn't fit in

I'm taking it for granted

This blessing I've been given

Did I grow up too fast? Or am I tripping?

I've been drinking

Thinking about a life that I could've had

That I should've had

I've been sinking

Can't breathe underwater, do I like that?

Or has my mind cracked?

Never conflicted

Are the words that are inked on my body

But I can't copy

I don't wanna fix it

Imma make myself drown, I'm sorry

I'm not sorry

I got it tatted on my arm to remind me

But I can't seem to follow these signs, please

I can't do it on my own, come and find me

Even though, this won't matter when I'm ninety

Push it, push it to the back again

Someone else can deal with it, I don't wanna depend

On other people but I can't do this, my friend

Wait a sec, I think I wanna try it again

I've been drinking

Thinking about a life that I could've had

That I should've had

I've been sinking

Can't breathe underwater, do I like that?

Or has my mind cracked?

Never conflicted

Are the words that are inked on my body

But I can't copy

I don't wanna fix it

Imma make myself drown, I'm sorry

I'm not sorry