BLACK HEART Lyrics

And it seems like nowadays

I still live with a black heart

I can feel it growing blacker

I've been trying to find what matters

And it seem like nowadays

I still live with a black heart

I can feel it growing blacker

I've been trying to find what matters

I don't give a fuck about anything

Don't wanna answer the phone I'ma let it ring

In my left ear I hear all the devil screams

In my right ear I hear all the angels sing

Yeah I gotta black heart

And its growing blacker

Yeah I got a black heart

And its growing blacker

Kept emotions locked up for a hundred years

Felt like Tupac I've shedded so many tears

Seen this pain disappear then it reappears

Seen this happen so much now I'm insincere

Taking L after L can get damaging

Ring bell after bell I be panicking

Everybody around me keep vanishing

I got too many wounds for the bandaging

Like I how do I go from one day talking to my people

To the next day they gone

Deep inside I was feeling evil while I'm acting peaceful

What the fuck was I on

For a second was losing purpose

Sacrifices worthless but I had to push on

Drain my feelings till all are withdrawn

But I'll never shrink down to a pawn

And it seems like nowadays

I still live with a black heart

I can feel it growing blacker

I've been trying to find what matters

And it seem like nowadays

I still live with a black heart

I can feel it growing blacker

I've been trying to find what matters

I don't give a fuck about anything

Don't wanna answer the phone I'ma let it ring

In my left ear I hear all the devil screams

In my right ear I hear all the angels sing

Yeah I gotta black heart

And its growing blacker

Yeah I got a black heart

And its growing blacker

Lot of days that I woke up

I couldn't find drive to my life so I felt like its meaningless

Lot of days that I woke up I didn't want to wake up

The infinite sleep was the easiest

But I'll never give up or live up to false potential

Cuz that comes with the greediness

They don't see what I truly do see in this

Watching lives fade away it gets tedious

You keeping living on they resent you

When you dead and gone who gonna miss you

Another day goes on they dismiss you

Another funeral had to sit through

Another birthday viewed from heaven

Wishing that we could speak for a second

So that I can tell you where I'm headed

And how all of my visions well spread

I know Emmy watching

Know my grandma watching

Know my uncles watching from the stairs

I'm not with the violence but I can get violent

If you speak on my dead I'm prepared

I can't leave in silence what the fuck is silence

I'm gonna scream till the world know I'm here

I've been living these few years in fear

Now I'm ready to sharpen the spear

Now I'm ready to sharpen the sword

I could care less about the billboards

I could care less about the awards

Or the things I could later afford

Those will come with the victory of war

I just want to show my loved ones to better living

I know I'll make it happen no time for wishing

I just can't leave this earth as victim success in my system