Letter From Swazy Lyrics

Bih my name swazy

Like John was standing in front of me, wrote this behind the wall

Thought they looked at me like chemo and wanted to see me ball

But like a tree with money leaves, they wanna see me fall

I was hurt like Jalen, but I won't let these tears run down my jaws

So I put them in a song

Signed a fucked up deal when I was a kid but now a nigga grown

Treated niggas like Christian Louboutin kicks, I tried to put em on

Like a motor no oil if I was selfish I prolly woulda blown

Twenty five hundred a show, but the price had went down

Less and less folks at my show, guess the hype had went down

Tryna expand my name and my brand but I don't know how to do it

I wouldn't listen to Bigga Rankin sometimes we got into it

You don't know how it feel yea

You don't know how it feel

To have you a record deal and people looking at you like you rich but you broke as a joke

Selling gas tryna make money but you smoking it though

My bitch had invested some money, we hoping it grow

Double it, triple it, flip it, how we hoping it go

Fuckin' up the profit time and time again

Ill look crazy as a bitch getting a job so Ima rhyme again

Knockin' down these projects like a demolition

Yellow black grey mixtapes but they still ain't listen

Knowing that I need some help, pride won't let me ask for it

Aiming at the nets, barely hittin the backboard

I lost some support from my city, that shit hurt me so bad

Stressing losing hair, rocking fitteds, it'll never grow back

I was still screaming free trigga when they called me a rat

I finessed the system and they made me look bad

Coulda got an Oscar the way I acted Denzel

Ten years later, same story, swear I didn't tell

Saying i don't give a fuck what people think

Same time giving a fuck what people think about me

Embarrassed at the spot that I was in, I was hiding it

Thankful that the big God was with me and was guiding me

Every time I wanna quit, somebody say that they admire me

Tamara said her daughter listen to me, it inspired me to keep going

I know I got a purpose

Everything i done been through, its gone be worth it

Sometimes I feel worthless

Sometimes I text my niggas, they don't text back it have me in my feelings

Sometimes I reminisce about my brother, wish that I was with him

Sometimes I don't even know how love feel, even though my girl give it

I think bout niggas who used to look up to me, they in competition

Saying that they fuck with me when it was time to show they didn't

My cousin gave a nigga a gun in front of me to kill me

My other cousin want some free features, he had more money than me

Niggas say they love me I felt they was tryna shine on me

My nigga boss had paid my bond and they ain't put a dime on it

Scam money was free but they ain't never put me down on it

My djs like my brothers I felt like they ain't play my music though

I felt they had the power to help me but they ain't use it though

My cousin producing for my other cousin, I can't get no beat

My engineer fucking with him cause of me shit made me grit my teeth

Had to think about it like a business, niggas gotta eat

One time I was like fuck y'all, hope you accept my apology

I felt like Slumb left me all alone my nigga

The shit that I was feeling was all wrong my nigga

Waking up every morning, hoping that this shit was make believe

The love that I had for my nigga Don, I couldn't make it leave

The love that I had for my nigga Don, I couldn't make it leave

Love that had for my nigga

My diary, I just published my diary

I just gave all the feelings I was ever ever feeling

Everything that I was dealing with inside of me

My diary, I just published my diary

I just gave all the feelings I was ever ever feeling

Everything that I was dealing with inside of me