I Wasn't Prepared For This Lyrics

I wasn't prepared for this

I was only trying to survive

What a perilous

Drift into the night

Approaching the abyss

Where tears come to die

Standing with my fists

Clenched to the side

I didn't wanna believe that

All my friends had gone to hide

Can someone tell me if

It'll ever be alright

Cause I can't tell if

Someone was standing by my side

Would it make it better

Or is that a lie I hide behind

It's not that I wasn't to blame

For all the things I didn't say

But I never thought that it

Would have turned out this way

Feels like a melody

That I just can't get out my head

So I lie here

Awake in my bed

Sometimes it's hard to decide

If I'm going to make it through the night

When my breath

Keeps rushing out from inside

But I wanna believe

That there's gotta be something more

Cause it's taking all I have

Just to not give up