To the Sea Lyrics

I've been humming a song all day

I couldn't place it

And then I remembered it's the song you wrote for him

Can I ask why you stay

You're scared of the ocean and me, let's face it

And I'm scared of what you think you could've been

And when you don't call I start to spin

I feel myself trying to get sucked in

But you never pull, you push so I know it's just me

But I wonder if you're seeing his face

And wondering if I could ever replace

'Cause he never saw in you the things that I can see

But if he asked you tonight would you run to the sea

And whenever I say his name

Your whole face changes

It lights up in a way I never see you do anymore

Why do I play this game

I know I'll love and lose

And you'll just rearrange your world whenever he knocks on your door

Did you only kiss me on a whim

Whenever you finally gave up on him

'Cause after the years of hurt you needed to feel free

I put myself in a cell and threw the key away

And told you that you didn't have to stay

But that I love you and I pray that you agree

And as you said you love me your eyes ran to the sea

And you're kissing me slow

As I pretend I don't know

That you wanna go with him

And your head's on my chest

And my heart just won't rest

So you know I'm obsessed and I've always been

Till I finally ask what would you be if he didn't leave

And you say you were always meant to find me

Is that what you convince yourself as you run to the sea