Mental collapse Lyrics

Waking up again

Nothing at all feels real

I don't feel real

Why must I exist?

If everything feels artificial

Fake smiles, fake laughs

Drowning in a sea of nothing

That no one else can see

Fading in and out of consciousness

Figuring out what is real

Or if I'm just dead

Ventolin in my system now

Breathing is still shallow

I see shadows

That reappear in different places

I hear his voice

Telling me to cut my wrists

I feel drained

But I hide it well

I've hurt myself the night before

But no one notices

I like it that way

Maybe I will kill myself tonight

Or even tomorrow

Nobody will ever know