EV INTRO/HONESTLY ft. EV & MOM DUKES Lyrics

One day you gon' see, one day you gon' see

It's for my family, for my family

Hold that place for me, hold that place for me

One day you gon' see, one day you gon' see

It's for my family, for my family

Yeah, I done cried so many nights

Take my life, I done thought about it plenty nights

Take my life, I done thought about it plenty night

It was hard, but I had to go through empty nights

It ain't been the same since 2021

Life ain't been the same, I ain't having fun

Life ain't been the same, I ain't having fun

No, life ain't been the same, I ain't having fun

This pain it run so deep inside of me

Hoping Ev proud of me, honestly

I ain't been the same, honestly

We was pose' to make it out, honestly

They tell me keep my head up, I be trying

If I said that it was easy, I'd be lying

My heart cold, but my soul on fire

I can't get no sleep, I'm feeling tired

We was bout our paper, fuck the streets and fuck the beef

Everything we did, we kept discreet

Your secret's safe with me

Why you had to die before you reach your peak

You was like my twin, we was family

This pain it runs so deep inside

My vision it got blurry, ever since you died

My eyes red from tears, even soldiers cry

I be wanting peace, but it's hard to find

We was supposed to grow up old, reminisce on shit we did

Watch each other's kids, watch our kids bid, watch our kids, kids

Now i'm mad at God and I can't forgive

And that footage of you dying, swear it make me sick

Your mom been holding on and you know she strong

All this time that flew by, life been moving on

You my dawg forever, that shit set in stone

I know you gone but time to time I text your phone

I gotta make it known, I miss my nigga Pone

I gotta make it known, I miss my nigga Pone

I gotta make it known, I miss my nigga Pone

I gotta make it known, I miss my nigga Pone

This pain it runs so deep inside of me

Hope that Ev proud of me, honestly

I ain't been the same, honestly

We was supposed to make it out, honestly

My amazing, beloved son Evan

Who came into my life 25 years ago

And was incredibly special from the time that he entered into this world

To know him is to love him

Caring, compassionate, funny, integrity filled

Dignified, a quiet storm

If you didn't know, you had to feel you out

And this cruel world

Um…

Took my son's life

And I will never ever be the same

It's still not real to me that he's no longer here

But he's no longer here in the physical

But our mother-son bond will forever remain