Nothing Lyrics

I met you in the first year of high school

So handsome guy, so strong, oh, so cool

But then I liked your then girlfriend, didn't then know me like that

You and all knew, there was drama like there was hate between us

Months later, we're in the same classroom

Sorry for all in a note to you

Can I call you bro? I asked you there as well and you said yes

We became close, I fell for you, a love so fucking boundless

Ignored the obvious red flags

Suppressed all what didn't fit with your shitty standards

None ever said what we were

But then you told someone else, from whom I later learnt

You were my all

But for you I was more like nothing at all

Our seats were changed and I just freaked out

Nightmares happening, you ignoring me, not having you 'round

Tried to be okay, my world was ending

Cried in my room quietly scared of rejection

Forced talking, thought I did wrong, I apologized

You typed you're a pain, we patched again, it didn't felt right

Carnival week, I gave you another chance

On paper all was good but still felt that sense of foreboding

Thursday noon, you were so mad

Asked why maybe too many times, wish I didn't do that

You getting ready for break

And just before you left with you stress me you said goodbye

You were my all

But for you I was more like nothing at all

That goodbye so tough, but just so deserved

'Cause who am I to think that you could ever love me?

And you once told me you should love yourself

Simply 365 you were my first priority

Everything you had, everything you wore

Everything related to you, not the same as before

All forever yours, all of you just screams

Now all that talk to you make jealous, wish that was me

My friend who you told what I was to you didn't lie

It was so clear, this unreturned love, smoke in my sight

But I can't say that all this shit's your fault

'Cause I was the one who with the wrong one fell in love

Short breaks, inside jokes with common friends, long waiting, derailed love train

Unreturned favors, last minute changed songs, secretly saved pictures

Burst bubbles, failed conversations, spread secrets, cringey revenge

Dates to remember, deep wound, novel from a line, never said birthday wish

Class days without you but you there, anxious state, questions, was obsessed

None to talk 'bout this, wanted thank u, next, fake moving on, am I good?

Begging to say sorry, you and calisthenics on the beach with your Capricorn friend

Seeing you everywhere all the time