it's not even worth it Lyrics

I'm fumbling through the thoughts I've had for several dozen weeks

About ten thousand thinks an hour

I can't force myself to sleep

Or breathe

I'm barely even holding onto sanity

But I did this to myself

I need to take responsibility

Lately

I'm just a wreck and I'm sorry

Thought I had control but then life came out of nowhere and

Knocked me right on my ass without stopping

I'll sober up and take the wheel

So you can't tell how bad I feel inside

I filled up every moment

Of the days I used to waste

Except for years I've kept on going without taking any break

And I wish that I could tell you that it's easy staying sane

So many humans do

I guess that, I'm just not the same as them

There must be something wrong inside my brain

'Cause lately

Things are just fucked and I'm sorry

Thought I knew what I wanted but look where it got me

Right on my ass but the world is not stopping

I'll sober up and take the wheel

So you can't tell how bad I feel inside