Recognize Me Lyrics

It's almost new year

And I haven't seen you in years

Came from a different country

And I'm happy to be here

Don't mind, I haven't really slept that much

Say it's jet lag, but I'm just feeling out of touch

Not with any of you, but myself

My aunties marvel at my height and my shelf

Wearing heels, they do help

But I've always been tall in their eyes

Swear it's not a disguise

I'm not a teen like before

Yeah I'm 19, not a kid no more

Do you recognize me?

I don't recognize me

Yeah, do you recognize me?

I'm recognizing

Maybe it's okay that I don't

The parts of me I need to let go

Familiar and comfortable

But that won't let me grow

I'll admit

I got my share of secrets

And it's been quite a minute

Since I could trust somebody

Even myself

Since I could say I'm doing well

Yeah I've been worried for my health

From all the trauma I've been dealt

My nightmares and hallucinations

Felt so real I'd lose control

These flashbacks so paralyzing

Could barely stand on my own

Those fears and doubts so magnifying

Wondered who I'd call my own

So much that I thought I won't make it

To the end of year alone

Do you recognize me?

I don't recognize me

Yeah, do you recognize me?

I'm recognizing

Maybe it's okay that I don't

The parts of me I need to let go

Familiar and comfortable

But that won't let me grow

It wasn't until I had visited you guys in the Philippines

That I realized I had finally gained the energy back into my legs

That I had finally talked back to the whispers

And that I could finally express myself again

After months of failed medications and talking stages

Of constant self-care and therapy

I want to give myself the credit that has been long overdue

And of course, to my beloved family - thank you