The Perfect Burden Lyrics

So what if you're a liar?

You still feel like home

I suppose that I could heal the wounds

But then I don't think I'd know where to go

I laid there crying in his bed

He slept through all the noise

And when the knife went in my back

I thought this feels so familiar

I hope he hurts me forever

And I hope it's just like that.

Once I walk out that door

I can never come back home

So I'll be the perfect burden

'Cause I don't think I can do this on my own

And it's not that I'm afraid

Or incapable of change

I just love you and I miss you

And I'm tired of pretending that I don't

Fuck the healing

Fuck the right thing

I just wanna stay right here

I love the way that you don't love me

I feel safer with the wanderers

'Cause at least I always know when you'll disappear

I like the ones who make me lash out

I scream until I shake

I imagine that I'm telling you

How much I hate you

From beyond the grave

Once I walk out that door

I can never come back home

So I'll be the perfect burden

'Cause I don't think I can do this on my own

And it's not that I'm afraid

Or incapable of change

I just love you and I miss you

And I'm tired of pretending that I don't