SUMMER Lyrics

Ever fall in a state

Where your feelings just complain

Wave after wave

Slowly drowning in depression maybe

Maybe go live a life so happy

Its gleaming, skin bleeding

Refresh the page reading

Bout' my insecurities

Delusion, you know it

Head in circles, writing how I knew this

Life is, so lifeless, nightmares, so violent

At the palm of your hands you drop it

Taking all my time

Thoughts that linger 'side my mind

Knives on wrist, noose on neck

Plan another day, waiting for my end

All of my pain never fade away

Find another man, for fucks sake

Speaking to god

She be telling me that my lifes a disgrace

Fuck if you know bout my pace

Thinking bout you and face

All of my wrongs, all of my aches

Why do I run in these circles

Wondering all of this hate

In my head to myself

Thinking how to kill myself

Painful feeling in my head

Cause I love the pain it's amazing

Thoughts of you just amaze me

Stuck in this rut

All of my feelings don't phase me anymore how they used to

So numb, so discrete

Live in the shadows

So no one remembers me

I embarrass me

Still sleep on your favorite side of bed

Still wishing I was better off dead

And all of these graces of glory

Burning this down to my head

Cause everything is temporary

Nothing worth living

I know that you hate me

I know that I struggle

We all know its mental

We all know I took a big toll

I love feeling down

The pain is amazing

I'm stuck in the past

I'm hating the future

I love what I had

I hate what I need now

Hate what I have deep down

Never forgetting the lock in the back of my head

RIP

Listen, all of my voices be saying shit

Wondering how I'm supposed to forget

How to just factory reset

Be a new person

When all of my thoughts be lingering tryna sleep

Downing these shots like they help me relieve

Cutting my wrists, sick of my ways

Holding everything to myself

Pushing away

Sorry for being what I am today

Thinking bout candy paint

I been losing weight

Never be eating for couple days straight

Doing my thang, reliving my past in all of these ways

Starting that summer of 2018

RIP