BIRTH Lyrics

September 9th, 2004, 6:34 pm

World came to a stop and bowed their heads as my new life begins

Parents crying, doctors crying, 'cause I look like a prophet twin

Doctors told my mama don't work out 'cause I was the hidden gem

18 years the 18th year saw life for what it was

Only I control what's in my life, no parent, friend, or blood

Treated my pain like funyun' crumbs, sweep under the rug

Demons turn to cockroaches, now my bed is filled with bugs

Can you feel me

I'm feeling a different feeling

Heart was growing holes on the inside

Went to the dentist, they can't give a filling

Doc can't prescribe a prescription

Pastor can't give out a scripture

Trauma not getting attention

Life not giving me adventures

365 days, 18 times

To really feel like I was living took til the 18th time

Cause I've been getting trained to be a slave since 2009

So when I'm thinking for myself, its too much to handle at one time

In 0'10, I wasn't 10 but would pretend that I was 10

Cause I was mama's only child I saw more than some average kids

All the fuss between my parents

Out in public, I'm comparing

If my parents still together, what it help what I inherit

But now I'm older, thanking God they're not together

Help me have perspective, thinking and thankful for what's for better

Molded me into a man, but no man is among my level

No more hanging out with young boys, I'm kicking it with rebels

Figured out that I was special in 2020

At 17, realized the world that's out there, probably for me

Maybe the different style of rap could change a culture or plenty

I understand if they don't let me in, it's not they resent me

It just means that they don't understand, never seen something different

When everything in the city is glorified for killing

Never mind, they're not gonna hear your boy till I get some millions

But God's gonna find a way to bring this to you when shit hit the ceiling

When shit hit the ceiling, I cried and I cried all night

My girlfriend asks me how I'm doing, I say I'm not alright

The pressure getting to me heavy, it's taking over my life

And then the sun had come out and I was feeling alright

And now I'm telling the world I'm 18, chasing my dreams

Telling you your dream is out there, it is not make-believe

It is not make-believe

Telling you your dream is out there it is not make-believe

What's going on voice memo's

It's lareezy checking in

Im on my bike ride right today and

You know I usually ride my bike to escape the thoughts at home

Like ever since I graduated and turned 18 it kind of just seem like

This life is just really real, like really real

I just be having that feeling like

I'm just like this lil kid in this big ol world

I don't know, maybe I just be trippin