how you used to say my name Lyrics

I don't wanna go outside

Tell my friends I don't got time

But they all know I'm lying

But that's okay

My demons come around at night

But honestly they're pretty polite

It's when you pop into my mind

I'm not okay

I'm so afraid

Of forgetting what it's like

To have you by my side

Gotta keep myself awake

Cause what if I wake up

And I don't remember us

And how you used to say my name

My family thinks that I'm alright

They look at me and think that I

Got it all figured out

But it's all a game

I'm winning but it's fake

Oh I'm afraid

Of forgetting what it's like

To have you by my side

Gotta keep myself awake

Cause what if I wake up

And I don't remember us

And how you used to say my name

Don't tell me it's okay

That the memories will stay

And that the pain will fade

We all know that's a lie

Cause how am I supposed to be happy

When you're not here by my side