CARCOSA Lyrics

19 years

Won't get to get em

If the window keeps on whispering

Pure adrenaline

Rotten and decomposed

Runs through my rotten veins

But I already discarded to blow my brains

If I decide to jump

I'll do it once I understand I'm free

It's

Twelve hours a day of wondering

"Will I get to see my blood rust

Once I release it?"

Why shouldn't I slide my wrist

If all I wish is pain

Yeah, I'm scared

But I won't bail

If you really want to kill yourself

You don't fail

18 and a half

Won't get to get em

If the window keeps on whispering

Silver lining playbook has been robbed

But I am faithful

'Cause nothing's ever over

And I swear to you that

I'll be back to being me

Once I'm sober

It's all a play until you die

A dream within a dream

You try to fool yourself

But you won't fool me

'Cause I know that I'm a dream

That dreams of being a person

But that person soon will end

And you will all disappear

It's the story of my 'O'

The girl of my dream

She couldn't kill herself

'Cause she knew she wasn't real

But reality is dictated by a little piece of steel

'Cause a dick and a vagina

Decided to spin the wheel

All the mentors in the world

Push you further to the cliff

Ideologies that drive you

To your fuckin origin

Paradoxical obsession

The cat and the box were set

But you can't open the box

If you're dead

18 years I got to get em

But the window keeps on whispering

And I can not slit its throat

So I'll destroy mine

Auto-annihilation venerated

A subculture's been created

But they're lying

If you wish to make me bleed

"It's all fine"

Make your brain levitate

Until your feet won't touch the ground

And the blood flows in reverse

Into your ears as holy sound

Penetrate your skin relentless

The truth is inside of you

Seeking answers will seem endless

Let your guts come out of you!

Poet is the alchemist

That can turn his soul into words

Sometimes, so powerful

That they can cut like swords

But, only other nightcrawlers know

What hides beyond the ink

A catharsis that prevents the blood

From flowing on the sink

And

Maybe it will be me

Or maybe it will be time

That will make me understand

That my life is mine

But

All I can asure now's

That the moment's gettin closer

That being the day

That I step into Carcosa