Phoenix Lyrics

I cried at the bottom of the shower

This wasn't how I wanted it to be

When all that heat and all it's power

Burned out in the night like a fever dream

When you fell asleep at five in the morning

I looked in the mirror at my face

There's a kind of attraction that consumes you in fractions

I didn't notice till it was too late

The phoenix dies in it's own fire

I was selfish then and a god damn liar

The phoenix dies and you'll never know

That I carry it's ashes wherever I go

My rational brain knows that you'll never hear this

But if I'm in your ear, listen to me say

I would've rather died than hurt you on purpose

For the ways that I did, I hold a candle of shame

It even flickers in the rain

The phoenix dies in it's own fire

I was selfish then and a god damn liar

The phoenix dies and you'll never know

That I carry it's ashes wherever I go

I wanted to be with you but only if you wanted me

The way that I treated you weighs heavy on my fragile wings

The words that I wrote in that note on your pillow

I meant every word of it

The phoenix dies in it's own fire

I was selfish then and a god damn liar

The phoenix dies and you'll never know

That I carry it's ashes wherever I go

The phoenix dies in it's own fire

I was selfish then and a god damn liar

The phoenix dies and you'll never know

That I carry it's ashes wherever I go

Wherever I go