4:44 AM Lyrics

Fight my battles, you ain't see me hurting

I been wanting to quit, but keep going

Show go on no, I can't close the curtain

They switching up, they wasn't from me for certain

See my gift and I can see the purpose

Used to be a joke, a Eddie Murphy

I put my head down cause I'm steady working

You in the dark you be forever lurking

You don't wanna see me win

You be hurting me cause I know you don't wanna see me grin

Put my heart into expression

You see pain from how I been

I need time for me to chill cause I been living on the edge

I keep challenging myself I put my soul up to the test

I put money to the music then I play with all the rest

They had crossed me, I couldn't even take it hard for me to digest

How you feel when everybody leeching tired of the pests

I got photographic memory, I can't forget your face

I can't go back where I started, I know that shit not my place

I got older, I got in this music industry with greats

They hurt me when my idols had really turned into some snakes

They had crossed me, they a snake me out this life of being betrayed

I had put my heart in music, I can't take it to the grave

They not nothing like my soul, I cut them off, it's like a shave

You got jump into the dark and it was hard, was feeling brave

Really hurt me that I took you to the places that was close to me

I can feel you slipping, move away so you not close to me

We not on the same time, I'm growing and you staying down

I been getting more serious, tighten up, you playing around

Still remember 2017 like it was yesterday

Do you know the feeling, everything you living seeming fake

Woke up in your arm, I had some nightmares, I'm not comfortable

Fuck it out the bed, I run it up till I got multiples

All I do is put my pain away until it spin around

I know that the people talking all my word and getting around

I was rolling leaf, was poppin' psych was hurting, sitting around

God came around and found me lost, and guide me to me feeling proud

I was at your house, won't say too much but I slept on the ground

Ever been so hurt inside, you can't even feel the pain from out

Try hard not to reminisce, cause I know my life harder now

Only time I'm ever feeling love is when my mama smile

I turned 20, spent it with my granny, then went hit the stu

Then I chilled and spent it with some family in the others stu

Ever been through pain and kept a smile cause I'm the living proof

Everybody still won't watch me eating, it's a petting zoo

They don't even know what I went through to get this level too

Yeah I felt the pain, when they don't love you, they be killing you

Ever heard somebody that you love, they tryna hurt themselves

Swear I'm scarred forever, what I heard, no it will never heal

Fuck em if they doubting, this for me don't care who's showing love

Long nights and long days, we pray for this, I gave my bro a hug

Told him if you need me, hit my line for game that I can preach

He don't know I need it more than him, but I won't ever reach

Everyone I love, except like four or three turns to at leech

They get to a point where you like fuck it, you won't even screech

I had sobered up, got off the weed, it kept my thinking deep

Pray to God I wake up having visions when I fall asleep

I'm stressing about my life no I'm not counting sheep, yeah

I swear it been a while since a tear leaked

Ever been so hurt that you just try to cry

But nothing coming out your eye, that shit be staying dry

I be wanting to give up, but don't want to die

Just for you I put my heart up on that line

I said that I love you like a million times

But it don't mean nothing if you won't never try