Grief Lyrics

I go through life with so much grief

I close my eyes but I can't sleep

I hope one day I rest in peace

But until then I keep on weeping I like to wallow in my sorrows

Find solace in the bottle problems drowned with every swallow

Try to maximize my time cause I know the time I got is borrowed

But all my days end up the same my yesterdays look like tomorrow

And my bills just multiply I got this phone and rent and car note

Try to find the positives but negatives in my Wells Fargo

My energy gets over drafted heavy weighted lotta cargo

I went and sold my chain it makes me question if my heart gold

I walk around I'm always smiling but I cant lie this shit ain't easy

Cause inside I'm really down but I don't frown know its deceiving

And I don't wanna let em' down cause I got people and they need me

But tell who the fuck can I call when my heart gets tired of beating

Tell me who the fuck I count on when my minds a bit uneasy

When my pride and self esteem starts to decline and I get sleepy

Tired of dealing with this life cant close my eyes cause I start dreaming

And my nightmares getting stronger been exercising all my demons

They tell me it's, part of the process it's part of the gain

They tell me I gotta keep on working disregard all the pain

While distractions stay attacking me, my heart and my brain

I put in all this fucking time they still disregarding my name

As time pass these negative thoughts are getting hard to contain

I'm tired of taking all these losses I gotta charge to the game

And everybody sees my failures that shits part of my shame

That's why I put it on a song and try to market my pain

And I had people I thought love me its been a minute since they call me

Use to tell me that they got me now it looks like they forgot me

Use to call me when they need me, now its me who needs somebody

Been feeling like I'm finna crash no one to slow me down or stop me

I'm always there for them to lean on, when I need it they disregard me

Never quick to show forgiveness yet they quick to say they sorry

Always act a bit indifferent when the road gets really rocky

But if I swerved and then I died then they'd be grieving really sloppy

I know

I go through life with so much grief

I close my eyes but I can't sleep

I hope one day I rest in peace, like