What if Lyrics

What if

The question is what if

What if am scared of letting go

Cause the last time I did I lost someone I love so much

What if am scared of saying the words I love you

Cause every time I do they turn to leave

So I will rather watch you from a far and wish I could tell you how I feel

Sometimes I wish you had a little clue of what I feel for you

But I guess you will never know or I will never know cause I never asked

Well there are some days when all I want to do is talk to you

See your face or even just hear your voice but I don't want to be weird

So I brush that feeling off like is nothing

I hide it every time I see you

And this may because am scared of getting hurt again

Am scared of hearing the answer that comes with the words I like you

Because I don't want to leave through that pain again

Am not sure this time I will survivor

Am not sure I will be able to look at you and call you a friend

Am not sure there will be any humanity left in me

So I will rather keep it this way

Keep the friendship that we have built

And hurt in a way that keeps me alive not dead

So sorry not sorry for not telling you

Sorry if my eyes look at you with fascination

Well because my eyes like to betray me sometimes

Once grandma said, some dreams are the reality you want to live but can't

Well It may be true cause my dreams are full of beautiful flowers of me and you

While in reality we are just friends doing things we love

And we have not attempted to ask the unknown questions about each other

So I guess my dreams are playing tricks on me just like my life and love