Desiderium Lyrics

Everynight I find a way

While my mind slowly decays

To remind myself that I won't ever be in the right place

It's such a shame

What a waste

Always wishing I could carve up my own face

Ok I got it now

I'll just keep on following the plan and hope it works out

Yea I know that you are something that I cannot live without

So I wanna ask you this because my mind so full of doubt

Would you still love me

If I gave up hoping

Cus the darkness in my head

Won't go to rest

Replaced by a memory

This wasn't the ending

That I had in my mind

When I looked into your eyes

For the first time

And now my arms are filled with scars

They took my only reason to survive

Helpless I claw at the marks

They took away the light

Now I'm begging them to take my life

Everyday I fall further and further away

Whyyyy

Save me from myself

Is it too late for me now

Because my minds been broken down

And I don't know how to go on

When youre not around

But I'll keep on trying

While I keep on dying

Though I know that I can't escape it

Told you I'd do anything

But I can't feel a thing

No I cant feel a thing

Would you still love me

If I gave up hoping

Cus the darkness in my head

Won't go to rest

Replaced by a memory

This wasn't the ending

That I had in my mind

When I looked into your eyes

For the first time