What am I Gaining? Lyrics

Talking off the toxic

Rarely spitting nonsense

Know that I am God sent

Lost and learned and lost since

Had a fall from grace, and then I picked apart my options

Making less than what it's costing

Is worth what I've exhausted

Time is money I don't even watch the clock and

Got my mind on the line I ain't boxed in

My boss just called, so I answered my conscience

He tried tell me the people are saying I lost it

Told him I'm on it

I'm on race to beat the clock and I ain't stopping for shit

Better take what I'm offering or quit

Cuz I always hold grudges and I never forget

I'm geeked off the perc and I'm gone off the pen

Goddamn I'm so high, should be the top of the list

And if she don't know me she wish that she did

if she did know me she'd say we were friends

you can pretend

That all good things (have to) come to an end

Like my worst habit, that withdraw and spend

On some more drugs that make me withdrawal again

I'm stuck in a cycle, feel like a whirlwind

I'm alone and crying feel like a lost kid

But yet I'm still winning I haven't lost shit

Except some of my grip

I had on reality since my last trip

Followed by molly then my nasal drip

On top of the world, when my pupils are big

I love all these drugs, hope I'm not addicted

But soon as they're gone, I know that I'll miss it

I obviously owe some visits

To some people we used to kick it

They be ringing up my digits

Mad when I say who is this

At a Loss of friends,

but don't know what I winning

At almost of friends don't know what the fuck I'm winning bro