Ruin Lyrics

I don't check my bank my account

That shit seems like the wrong amount

This is an open and close case

In that savings no longer saves face

I did not brace

Myself for a chase

Not like the bank but the race

To get last place

While getting a face

Full of fucking mace

No no I was never a nurse

It's doctor bitch, and there's your hearse

It just got worse

Not like a stolen purse

Social security card curse

Who am I in the verse

I only have words

But not verbs

My music disturbs

I am kicked to curbs

I do this because I have to purge

I am on the verge

Of a new life to submerge

I cannot merge

New with old and resurge

I don't have the same urge

I am older I am bolder

I smolder but I am a cold shoulder

Ruin is in the eyes of the beholder

I would have never made waves

Drowning in that phase

What's the phrase

Ain't there a trail to blaze

White girls can't rap

Well I am now so how's that

I'm tired of falling into a trap

Not like a hi hat

But like who am I in this act

No who are you to ask

I will wear no mask

I am not cast

To be the last laugh

I'm past that

There's a a gap at

My feet and I rap

Over a beat

I made with this cheap

Scratch sheet

But I keep

It going because

Life will not defeat

And I never hit delete

My song is never complete

But take a seat

And meet

The girl who rambles the street

And is obsolete

They say freak

Well I'm on a streak

And I cannot speak

For the weak

I would have never made waves

Drowning in that phase

What's the phrase

Ain't there a trail to blaze

So I come to you now as a new me

This is not who I'd thought I'd be

I think this is better though; I am free

There is no longer we

I do what I do because

It suits what I once knew

To be tried and true

I am not who

Who are you

Not how but what do you do

This is a poem you can see through

Eyes are not a window

No my songs have been though

I let under my skin show

It's been a bit of a shit show

But my answer is no

I would not go

Back though

I would have never made waves

Drowning in that phase

What's the phrase

Ain't there a trail to blaze