Living In Fear Of Everything Lyrics

I'm shaking, I'm sweating, I'm breathing, I'm coughing, I'm sneezing, I'm feeling deceased

I'm crying and watching the people that I call my friends, I'm feeling deceived

I'm breathing, I'm sighing, I'm thinking, been fighting, I'm lying down flat on my back

I scratch their backs and in return, I get stabbed in the back

Stopped crying, great timing, now pushing and trying to find my way back to the top

I'm tired, still pushing, I'm sweating, not waiting and I trust I'm not gonna stop

I'm trying my best to get back to the place I know I belong

I'm seeing the end, I'm gonna make it, 'cause I know that I'm strong

And if I slip or maybe I trip and I get swept off my feet

I'm gonna get up, brush myself up, stand my ground and repeat

And if I keep trying with God on my side, I'm telling you this, I know

All this pain and frustration that I feel inside would eventually go

I know that I cannot stop now (now)

Not gon' let my guard down

'Cause if I'm really gon' stop now (now)

I might've well stepped down

Been in this place before (before), I've seen this before (before), trust me, I know (I know)

If I'm gonna stop, then I'm gonna slip and that is gon' mess with my flow (my flow)

So I'm not gonna stop 'til I get to the top and then I'mma get the dough (the dough)

And then when I'm there and no longer here, y'all gon' notice my glow (my glow)

Been preaching, not lying, been giving, not bribing, a criminal is something I'm not

I know that I've done a lotta bad things, need guidance, I really need God

I've been trying to concentrate, trying to calculate but my mind is a flood

My mind is a mess, that's why I've been stressed, yes, I really need God

I gave out my heart, 'twas taken and hurt, and happened again

And saying this just reminds me of the days I was under the rain

But those days're gone, and now that I'm strong, I'm keeping my head in the game

Been talking to God, walking with God and trust me, I've not been the same

I know that if I'm gonna continue this thing, I've gotta have guts

Was battling myself, was battling the world and it lost the battle we fought

Can't sleep, been trying, these nightmares keep coming and I'm scared that they're gonna last

Can't think, not crying, but still, I'm dying from these visions I have of the past

The world is cruel, don't tell me, I know which is why I don't trust anyone

So that's why I'm gon' be saying these prayers until these nightmares're gone

Been writing and reading, stopped writing, now thinking of what I could possibly say

All I can say is to stay in your lane, read a Bible and pray

'Cause if you do all of these things, you're gonna get out alive

As much as it is a gift, it's also a curse and it is called life

I know that I cannot stop now (now)

Not gon' let my guard down

'Cause if I'm really gon' stop now (now)

I might've well stepped down

Been in this place before (before), I've seen this before (before), trust me, I know (I know)

If I'm gonna stop, then I'm gonna slip and that is gon' mess with my flow (my flow)

So I'm not gonna stop 'til I get to the top and then I'mma get the dough (the dough)

And then when I'm there and no longer here, y'all gon' notice my glow (my glow)