Wake Up Lyrics

Oh we're back here

I want to watch the world burn

Everybody's life is no concern

I was told to be silent and learn

I watch as my family crumbles

Look back at myself in the puddles

I refuse to walk on the beach

Answers are still what I seek

The sunken place has vanished

I would kill to be in another life damnit

Suicide won't save me from my thoughts

As I'm in my coffin as my body rots

I don't believe that love can save us

Intrusive thoughts and decisions cave us

Why would god make us suffer with what he gave us

I look at everything that got me far

As I drink away my emotions at the bar

I think about all the bridges I broke

Faded from reality when I inhale the smoke

We're here until we fulfilled our purpose

Until we know what it is, we're all not certain

I lost my ambition to to be positive

Even people have a lot to give

Do we have a good reason to live?

I paid my dues when I risked my career

Stared at death many times, I got nothing to fear

Only when Mebo passed away I truly shed a tear

My older brother thinks I'm gonna amount to nothing

I got a a lot of faith that I can turn this rap shit into something

I know I've said that many times but I wasn't bluffing

My autism is the root of all my problems in life

I can't tell the difference between good or bad in sight

I don't wanna have a fallout this early already

Even if I see the light with her there I know I'm ready

I'd rather give it up than keep it pushing

After being stabbed in the back blood gushing

And told by many people to shut up after shushing

I wanna know why I can't find the answers I needs

Knowledge and experience is what my brain feeds

Sometimes I wonder if my life has meaning

Why am I alive why am I breathing

Why are people believing I can't do shit

It's got me real clueless how ruthless people are

They don't realize I've made it far

They never ask you how you been

Sometimes I tell em I wish I was dead

Struggled with sum I can't control

I can seem to grasp my logic from patron

Lost Justin to the jealousy and greed of man

If I could save him I would man damn

I overthink my life choices and answers

Even after Mebo died from cancers

That woman was my momma unlike my own

Hearts been broken many years it's been torn

Grew up mentally abused from my own mother

Nowadays I get the same criticism from my brother

Didn't help that I was ridiculed for the way I think

Shit happened so fast I couldn't blink

My whole life I didn't know what was right or wrong

I hope I could put my pain on a song

I think about the times I was used

My mind since birth was abused

My love life isn't sweet

Seems I get broken up with on repeat

I wanted to be happy like them

I haven't felt joy since I was before ten