Push//Pull Lyrics

We have avarice

A holy greed

We try to run from who we are

But there's no need

No one cares any more

What happens next

To be honest

It feels like my friends are praying for the apocalypse

I wanna be good

I wanna be good

I wanna be good

But it feels so good to be bad

A push and pull

In constancy

It's a tug of war

It's a seesaw

joy on one side

On the other side I'm mad

I cannot handle this tide

I'm not even middle aged

And if I've got to navigate these stormy seas until I die

I don't wanna live 'til 108

There's a terror in the war inside

Something I can't control

The stoics told me that I could dictate my actions

But most times it doesn't feel so

I feel like I'm on autopilot

Fighting the machine

The body moves where it wants to move

And it leaves me with no mouth to scream

I feel like I'm on autopilot

Fighting the machine

The body moves where it wants to move

And it leaves me with no mouth to scream

Something left me

Deep in my youth

In the age of golden sun

I'd turn tail and go back in time

If I knew it was possible to run

I wanna survive

I wanna live

I wanna breathe

That's what I feel

But sometimes

I wonder if not waking up

Would be

Such a big deal

It's a push and pull in constancy

It's a tug of war

Between me and the divine

The spirit is willing

But the flesh is weak

And it's always been that way so it's fine

I feel like I'm on autopilot

Fighting the machine

Cause the body moves where it wants to move

And it leaves me with no mouth to scream

I feel like I'm on autopilot

Fighting the machine

Cause the brain does what it wants to do

And it leaves me with no mouth to scream