WHERE DO I BELONG? Lyrics

I do it to myself

Pick apart my shell

Till I have nowhere to go home

Ruining my health

Refusing any help

This is something I will have to learn to control

I'm leaving my home

It hurts you, I know

Leaving everybody that has come to grow close

I'm hurting myself

This never ends well

Tell me, is there a fix 'cause at this point, I don't know

My mom says I'm strong

I think she's wrong

Where do I belong?

Do I deserve to feel lost?

I've lost some hours, some years, and some friends

Chasing a dream, I don't think I can have

It's hard to believe in myself when I still feel I'm so incomplete, like there's something I Lack

For a whole fucking year, I had panic attacks

They tried to drug me to help me relax

I think I blew up a little too fast

And I wasn't ready for what would come next

I fell off the earth 'cause I just couldn't cope

To the point where I'm still barely checking my phone

I got nobody to blame but myself for the way that I'm always so fucking alone

A whole year has passed, and I'm packing my bags

I don't want to go, but I'm not turning back

I'm leaving my friends and my home and my mom and my dad, but

My mom says I'm strong

I think she's wrong

Where do I belong?

Do I deserve to feel lost?

My mom says I'm strong

I think she's wrong

Where do I belong?

Do I deserve to feel lost?

Take me, break me, crush me

Maybe if you use me, I'll feel like I'm good for something

I'm so scared of change that I've been holding onto nothing

If you were in my shoes, I guarantee you'd be disgusted