State of eNVy ft. Yasmin Reyes Lyrics

I still remember when I got the call

Telling me that you were gone

Icey roads

Blizzard snow

Mom is frantic on the phone

Am I going to make it home?

Shit just don't make sense

The biggest G I know

Just doubled over

Ain't this some shit

I'm stuck with

Myself now

Look around

And see you with your friends

Envy is so sound

I'm jealous they ain't dead

I'm peeping all the crows now

Paranoia in my head

Be lucky that this ain't you

I question who I pray to

My uncle's blood was in the street

Lost the OG

Who showed me

How to handle beef

What am I supposed to do

When I can't know peace

Like you I wish I knew

Why it had to be me

In a state of envy

There's nothing that I can say

All I do is hope and pray

I'll see you again one day

Holding on to memories

When it was just you and me

I can only see you in my dreams

I still tend to sit around

And think about how

You took your own life

Existing on new planes now

Is there peace there?

Cause it damn sure ain't here

Then the brain steers

I think about people being lost to bullets

Against their own will

How did you opt to pull it?

Guess I sometimes feel

How you did

Think it'd be better off if

I wasn't here to live

My heart is filled envy

Knowing that you got to see the end B

I'm really here thinking

Maybe I should end things

There's nothing that I can say

All I do is hope and pray

I'll see you again one day

Holding on to memories

When it was just you and me

I can only see you in my dreams

The city that I grew up in breeds all this jealousy

Its even in the name and this evil leads to felonies

With every penny drained

Another soul is gained

We playing with these flames

Let the ash leave its stain

And in the past we could change

But this the last of the rain

The famine spreads again

We're standing in disdain

Breaking any hand to lay

Fingers on our egos pain

I'm lost in this state

So I need to stay down

Get the fuck up out of Reno

Where the envy feeds clout

With every new casino

See the legend fade now

Of a city to be proud of

I need a way out