Cancer Lyrics

I don't feel nothing

But the pain in gut

Bloody wrist cut

Deep in the cut

Bodies crawling up

Middle finger up

666 calling up

Horsemen walk up

Dead men talking

Scarecrow stalking

Painkiller blocker

Bodies rotting in lockers

Instagram stalker

Everything starts to rewind

Hearing steps from behind

Stars and planets aline

Silent cries

Die in night

I am getting to high

Falling from the sky

I hate my Motherfucker self

I hate the way I fucking talk

I hate the way that I walk

I hate the way I be locked up in a Box

I hate the way I do not stand up For myself

I hate the way I don't Communicate

I hate the way I been Manipulated and sedated my Whole life

Hate the way I feel like I lie every Time I say I'm okay

But everyday is just another day That withers away

Itching my for the blade

I hate the world

Burn set it in flames

Let's paint sky grey

Let's paints the ways red

Line em up

Shoot them all one by one

Dead by day

No saving them

Run up without a gun

Dropping them like flys for fun

Bastard the son

Burning my lungs

If I have lost I have won

Why did my dad have to die

Is this just another way god is Testing me?

I was fucking fourteen not ready Mentally

Why the fuck did I see the Damage he went through Physically

And Why the fuck did cancer Grow in his head rapidly

Hate so much myself for wanting Him to die when he was slowing Dying

Cuz I was the one who was Watch him slowly dying for Months

Wish I could back and talk to Him before all of it

Back when I was stupid hanging Out friends

Back then when my family still Had a future and some plans

Remember the day, My brothers And sister picked me up early From high school

Remember the moment they told Me he was in the hospital

Remember seeing him and I Notice he wasn't the same

Remember my momma freaking Out when he was having a Seizure foaming out of his Mouth

Remember the pain in my Mamas screams

Remember the tears in my family Eyes

Remember the black bag that Carried him out

Remember the lost look in his Eyes

Not a day goes by where I don't Think about him when I look at The sky

Agony just plays in my head When I lie

My heart stop, dead stop, my Time stopped

Remember those good days he Left behind before he died

I was dreaming I was talking to Him last night