(A Mountaintop in) Santa Fe Lyrics

I had to leave my boyfriend because I thought I didn't love him anymore

There's nothing I've regretted for so long in my entire life before

I graduated high school and I looked upon the world like I would own it all one day

But nobody tells you that when you grow up, every single breath's a pain to take

And from that mountaintop in Santa Fe, I took one last look at the bay

And I told myself

You'll finally be okay

One day I'm gonna be there, and I'll have learned a lot

And I won't feel so ashamed

But I feel like a failure, like a nuisance, with each passing day

I dropped out of college and I looked upon your smile

Like I could see it for forever

But nobody tells you that when you grow up

Forever starts to look a lot like never

Woah, woah

And from that mountaintop in Santa Fe, I took one last look at the bay

And I told myself

You'll finally be okay

I write a lot of songs about my past because I'm scared to live in the future

And I've been pretty fucked up since my dog passed

I hope one day that I'll go up to meet her

Some day, we'll be okay, woah, ooh

But for now, I live in the present and take it day by day

'Cause if I think to hard about what's to come, I wouldn't make it there anyway

But I'll be okay, ooh

And from that mountaintop in Santa Fe, I took one last look at the bay

And I told myself

You'll finally be okay