Hard To Be Myself Lyrics

If I'm gonna die

Then I wanna die young

You don't understand

No you never could

Driving full speed

You don't know what my thoughts bring

Darkness I felt

Now I'm stuck in this shell

Wide awake

I lay

My eyes are open

Can't escape

These places leave

Me broken

Hard to be myself

I know evil's all around me

Spell it back once

And you'll notice it's alarming

I know where I'm goin

Destinations a little farther from heaven now

Yes I died inside

A little

Already in hell

Had to go and win a lot battles

With nobody's help

Life goes on

Still dealing with my tribulations

Gotta stay strong these feelings will bring you desperation

Every pain brings a lesson

Every lessons changing me

Death is not the greatest loss

But what dies inside as we live

I miss me

The old me

The happy one

Talking bout my brightest version

I'm thinking he's truly gone

Truth is everybody gonna hurt you

But it don't mean that they all deserve you

If I'm gonna die

Then I wanna die young

You don't understand

No you never could

Driving full speed

You don't know what my thoughts bring

Darkness I felt

Now I'm stuck in this shell

Wide awake

I lay

My eyes are open

Can't escape

These places leave

Me broken

Hard to be myself

I know evil's all around me

Spell it back once

And you'll notice it's alarming

My soul is broken

I hope you notice

If I'm gonna fall

Hope I fall fast

Keep the memories

In the past

If it's all my fault

Would you let me know

Hope you tell me before I crash

Safe to say I've had enough

Yea

Showed your hand I called your bluff

Finally recognizing that my enemy is my own self

I'm burning out

From all this hell inside

If I'm gonna die

Then I wanna die young

You don't understand

No you never could

Driving full speed

You don't know what my thoughts bring

Darkness I felt

Now I'm stuck in this shell

Wide awake

I lay

My eyes are open

Can't escape

These places leave

Me broken

Hard to be myself

I know evil's all around me

Spell it back once

And you'll notice it's alarming

My soul is broken

I hope you notice

My soul is broken

I hope you notice