Routine Lyrics

Asking if I'm okay

Grit teeth behind smile and say long day

Work so hard even my palms ache

Die inside at the thought of this as my fate

Constant anxiety over time

On occasion I feel like the Cap in ice

It takes all my will just to say goodbye

And I feel like I never do get it right

No wonder I can never fucking decide

Interactions make me wanna go hide

It's only about my emotions I lie

It feels like my doubts have loaded the dice

Thought I had found a reason for life

But it ain't amount to work that suffice

Fuck I'm so tired

Got pennies inside this guitar case

Trynna take hold, ignore what the cards say

Turn health into art using arcane

Maybe that comes with the heartbreak

I've grown so tired of this routine

I find so little to be soothing

Been crying during every movie

Only love myself within this jewelry

Feeling cute

But please could you give me some room

Come off as normal when I'm zooted

How I cope with this schedule I do

Don't give a shit watching money accrue

I prefer time cause our hours so few

We can turn wine to the sourest mood

She prefer when I'm high outside the room

Outside of her view

Setting up a missile put myself as the target

Take the fucker out while I admire the garments

Lately I've been dwelling under gutter feeling so rotten

Treating my dreams as if they just another fucking lil object

Tell so many round me I'm good when I feel the opposite

I ain't gon be straight until I finally get on top of shit

I been so caught in head

Don't say I'm influenced by star shapes

I find that to be a bizarre take

For all my baggage bought a large safe

Please don't take any harshness the wrong way

Fear I'll turn heartless, her plucking harp strings

Making a song of misery that sounds so haunting

Fear we couldn't purge the longing

Watch the rain, spark under awning

Fear I'm giving her hell, that she gonna say that I look like I'm Spawn

Feel like I'm under a spell, imperious cast upon me with her wand

Can't handle the sight of myself, but some people think that I'd fall in the pond

A sip of this tea make me melt, into the depths of my thoughts

Asking if I'm okay

Grit teeth behind smile and say long day

Work so hard even my palms ache

Die inside at the thought of this as my fate

Got pennies inside this guitar case

Trynna take hold, ignore what the cards say

Turn health into art using arcane

Maybe that comes with the heartbreak

Don't say I'm influenced by star shapes

I find that to be a bizarre take

For all my baggage bought a large safe

Please don't take any harshness the wrong way

I've grown so tired of this routine

I find so little to be soothing

Been crying during every movie

Only love myself within this jewelry

Feeling