There are no future years

It's just one replayed

2017 on loop

Forever breaking my brain

I still get glimpses of you

Screaming out my name

You're searching for answers

But I don't have anything

Love me, worship me

Treat me like I'm godly

Put me on a pedestal

Even though I'm 14

Hate me, degrade me

I'm worse than dirt I'm nothing

This 14 year old idiot

Reduced to a dichotomy

There are no future years

It's just one replayed

2017 on loop

Forever breaking my brain

I still get glimpses of you

Screaming out my name

You're searching for answers

But I don't have anything

Love me, worship me

Treat me like I'm godly

Put me on a pedestal

Even though I'm 14

Hate me, degrade me

I'm worse than dirt I'm nothing

This 14 year old idiot

Reduced to a dichotomy

Recently I've been like

Feeling like I have imposter syndrome

Which is like, you feel like you dont deserve

Any of the attention that you have

So you kinda just like, desociate with your, uh

I mean dissociate with your popular self

And make you feel like its not you

I'm- I'm only 14 years old

I feel I'm going to improve way more in the future years

And right now I'm living the dream that I've always wanted to live

You're in your future years

It's time to be amazed

Enter your trophy room

Years of dedication on display

And through the shiny awards

You can see your face

But you don't see yourself

So why'd it even matter anyway

I've been replaced

By me on screen

She's echoing

Who I used to be

I'm overshadowed by my own achievements

It's demeaning

I'll climb out of all of these trophies as they suffocate me, yeah

Yay, i feel happy

I feel happy in life right now

It's just really good ok

Ok bye!