who am i kidding Lyrics

Yeah I'm awake

I'll play along, do you know where to drive

If I wanted to be someone exciting

I would try

Why do you laugh

Why do you say buckle in for the ride

And that if I do the same thing over and over

I might die

Guess I'll go out swinging

One punch and now we're spinning

Drove around the block again

Is that what you're calling new beginnings

All this energy you're killing

Bash my head in just to fit in

I hope you're happy now, goddamn

Well then who am I kidding

Well who am I kidding

A fiend of the blue light

Think this screen is my prison

Living through maps of places I'll never visit

I'll go there in spirit

Maybe wait till I don't feel so nauseous all the time

Turn to someone that I never wanna be

Throwing up my vices with a fake apology

I don't get it, let me breathe

There's nothing here to see

There's nothing here to change

Why you staring at me

Why do you care

Go out your way just enough to explain

That if I do the same thing over and over

I'm insane

Guess I'll go out swinging

One punch and now we're spinning

Drove around the block again

Is that what you're calling new beginnings

All this energy you're killing

Bash my head in just to fit in

I hope you're happy now, goddamn

Well then who am I kidding