i'm the problem? / jordan Lyrics

See I got a lot of problems I'm just scared to admit

Dealing with some trauma I'm just scared to relive

I know kids that get touched

Grow up to touch kids

I know kids that get lied to repeat it again

When their spouse calls them out

For sneaking out of the house

Then they lie like nothing happened

But they know what it's about

And that kid saw his dad grabbing all on her blouse

As he beat her watch it repeat as they living it out

See I got a lot of problems I'm just scared to admit

Dealing with some trauma I'm just scared to relive

I know I got a temper

I know I got a problem with loving the man inside of the mirror

All I see is the words of my grandma on my figure

All I see is a boy that's scared that he won't be any better

That his past

I know I'm doing better but I'm scared

My problems will come back and all of this will crash

See I got a lot of problems

God will make a way

God will make a way

Oh yes he will

Got a lot of problems I'm just scared to admit

Dealing with some trauma I'm just scared to relive

I know I got a problem with lust

Whether that come from pain when I was young or lack of mothers love

I don't know but I know I'm just scared of screwing up

I'm scared I won't be a good father be a good husband

I'm scared my seed will say that my pains become a custom

And I'm scared to admit I act the same as grandmother

I've got a lot of problems I'm just scared to admit

Dealing with some trauma I'm just scared to relive

And I'm scared to admit that I'm scared

And I'm scared when you tell me the truth

I'll be hearing impaired

I'm scared I won't live up to the standard I set

Generational curses breathing down on my neck

And I'm scared I'll wan the same path my grandparents did

And I'm scared I'll hurt someone else with what I learned as a kid

I'm scared

God will make a way

God will make a way

Oh yes he will

I see your face all around me

I see your face in my mom

I see your face in all the women I lusted in with my heart

I see your face friends

I see your face in my dad

I see your face in the forgiveness of those who hurt you bad

I see your face in love

I see your face in my heart

Though it was broken and twisted I see you taking the parts

That we're breaking me down I see you throw them away

I see you face in the notebook that's been reviving my faith

I see your face in the stranger that I'll probably never meet

I see your face in the cry of a newborn child in the street

In many ways I'm the same as I cry right now

I'm reborn in your faith been braking my ego down

I see your face in my flaws I see your face in my flaws

I had to learn that my flaws were made in the image of God

I had to learn I can be perfect and that's ok

I was never meant to be perfect I was just told to have faith