Ways They Can't Forget Lyrics

It all started when I couldn't get out of bed

It all started when I couldn't get out my head

It only ends if I leave myself for dead

My thoughts are plagued by what I should've done instead

I can't even recognize regret

Hands are covered in scars by cigarettes

And if I left, I know I'd leave them all upset

I wanna leave on good terms

In ways they can't forget

Huh, shuffle through my drawers full of meds

Popped 'em since I was four and look at it where it led

Red green color blind, all I see is red

Where am I when all is done and all is said

But, why's that fall on me, please

I'd do it all again if need be

I'm an outsider at home

Tell me why that's so

It all started when I couldn't get out of bed

It all started when I couldn't get out my head

It only ends if I leave myself for dead

My thoughts are plagued by what I should've done instead

I can't even recognize regret

Hands are covered in scars by cigarettes

And if I left, I know I'd leave them all upset

I wanna leave on good terms

In ways they can't forget

Holdup, now it's my moment

I'ma be a little selfish here, but I'll own it

Every day I stumble as I'm searching for atonement

Man, it's a trip

Ask me who I should phone in

Oh, wait

Trip of atonement, we endure like a prayer

Fire style dropped and now the chakras getting shared

Well, except for my parts

All I hear is they don't care

But I try to focus on the good

I swear I'm in repair

It all started when I couldn't get out of bed

It all started when I couldn't get out my head

It only ends if I leave myself for dead

My thoughts are plagued by what I should've done instead

I can't even recognize regret

Hands are covered in scars by cigarettes

If I left, I know I'd leave them all upset

I wanna leave on good terms

In ways they can't forget

I can't stay where I've been

Nor can can I go back

I can't say come again

Cause what if I crack

I can't say in many subtle ways

But I've tried to kill myself, many times

I have no comfort for myself or my loved ones

I'm sorry, but I'm working on myself and it's a tough one

I'm praying and I'm crying and I'm doing my best

Put my strongest foot forward and I say it with my chest

I don't want to die but I'm severely depressed

I just throw it up to God and I'm handling the rest

It all started when I couldn't get out of bed

It all started when I couldn't get out my head

It only ends if I leave myself for dead

My thoughts are plagued by what I should've done instead

I can't even recognize regret

Hands are covered in scars by cigarettes

And if I left, I know I'd leave them all upset

I wanna leave on good terms

In ways they can't forget