I'm Killing Myself Lyrics

I'm killing myself slowly

I let my past control me

Nobody truly knows me

Sanity hanging by a thread, I'll wind up dead

Deteriorating

Weary of everything

I remember waking in a puddle of sweat

Drowning in 80 proof liquor that is up to my neck

I won't stop, it's never enough till I'm dead

Rotting on this spinning rock of pain, destruction and death

My being withering, heart cold, soul shivering

A lot of things I really have trouble remembering

Until I'm sober, I try to block out this trauma

Only way to do that is drinking rum like it's water

I done put it down, and it's for good this time

I step out in my front lawn and take a look at the sky

Cause life's beautiful and so rare and precious

Yet you drink it all away, think you can spare the seconds

You don't care where it's headed? Get your life back

Lost control of the wheel, your life's been high jacked

Another day gone, another lonely night passed

All alone and scared I'm gonna die like that

I'm killing myself slowly

I let my past control me

Nobody truly knows me

Sanity hanging by a thread, I'll wind up dead

Deteriorating

Weary of everything

Look in the mirror Kurt, that's who you bet your life on

So just shut the fuck up work harder and get your grind on

You sunk them teeth in your heart, you're the python

The past is the past, let these bygones be bygones

Why do you lie to yourself? Try to hide from yourself?

You keep this up and I can promise you gon die by yourself

Put on facades but deep down you're crying for help

I gave my heart and soul to this, yeah, I tried and I failed

Don't think I'm cut out for this, doubt I drown in it

I've ran out of bliss, these knives I pound them in

My own spine my truest feelings leaking out the pen

Make sure I drown in sorrow, ain't allowed to swim

I've been lost since an adolescent

Sick of being sad, I wanna feel some effervescence

My heart's cut out and worn, it's been slashed in sections

I just wanna feel some freedom, pain is never ending

I'm killing myself slowly

I let my past control me