My 19th Birthday Lyrics

My 19th Birthday - Dave

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[Producer Tag: 169]

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[Verse 1]

I spent my 19th birthday in the hospital

With my brother and my mum

And I know it sounds dumb but I felt like I lost it all

The pain's compulsory, suffering's optional

Takeshi's castle, my life's got obstacles

I'm still dealing with a whole load of stress

I see my older brother so close to the edge

And that there put a hole in my chest

And then they tell you home's where the heart is

But I got a hole where my heart is

Because I let a hoe where my heart is

Never again, I had to tell her that we're better as friends

I never messaged again

Every message I send, ends up in a groupchat

'Cause girls go and tell all their friends

That's one of many reasons why I ain't sending DMs

Look, I'm gonna keep this cake and I'm gonna eat this cake

That's why I'm living three lives, I'm in GTA

I'm in Los Angeles driving a Mercedes and it's funny because honestly I didn't think I'd see LA

Surprise birthday party I didn't see this cake, coming

I need this money like its EMA

You gotta separate the rats from the G's if you can't handle cheese How the hell you gonna be a great

I need a blazing inferno for my enemies

Behind my back I know that everybody sends for me

And I'd respond but I don't even have the time

I mean, asking Avelino couldn't help me find the energy

I don't think my ends want the best for me

That's why the question me, fake G checking me

Fuck the road but if anybody's testing me

It's one step away like a 5-a-side penalty

Every Santander Nationwide remembers me

Right pocket full of cards, I'm a referee

Ain't it funny how this money that I'm getting came from fucking PA's like I'm sleeping with a secretary

Secondly, your girlfriend's obsessed with me

But that's a story for another day and this is why love is fucked

'Cause you went and put your trust in her and then sent me nudes

I said "Nuh-uh-uh, cover up"

I aired it, certain girls I can't respect

We're all nothing to someone, and that you can't forget

So just remember when the girl's playing hard to get

There's probably another person that she's trying hard to get

And there's probably a girl in your phone right now that you hardly text

That's looking for love

But everybody wants what they can't touch, so

[Verse 2]

If you, touch my money you can see what I'm about

You can ask your little sister I will be inside your house

Eating from your fridge, feet up on your couch

Tell your little brother "Butter me a sandwich, spread in evenly amounts"

You think I’m playing any games?

Why do you think I talk about cars, women and chains

On half of the songs I make, materialistic aims

Make me feel a way when I want it

When I got it, it don’t ever feel the same

We got different types of problems

I’m getting corporate tax on this cash that I'm making

And at the same time I need to vanquish my paigons

If you think it's dead you're mistaken

I'm hot headed and dangerous

And still living in this matrix

All I wanna do is make my loved ones proud

In this year alone we made three hundred thousand

But my mum won't smile becuase her son's on trial

We've got different types of problems

What do you know about living in a shadow

Where every single thing that you can do is being tainted

'Cause your brother's in the station and he's ill to the marrow

12 or 13 when I turned into an adult

All them kids my age were going TeenFest

When I was getting searched by a golden retriever in a Cat. A prison while I'm standing on an arrow

We used to have cards and now we're playing with swords

My G went from Blackjack to a black Jack Sparrow

I know so many man who got a case on their head that would kill to come home

But there chances are narrow in this world that we live in

Nobody listens, we do have thoughts

But nobody's thinking and I get it

'Cause none of us are tryna play the victim

Any disrespect then retaliation, instant

I know a lot of man have been dodging karma

And they think it's all laughter 'till the bitch comes to kiss them

You know the difference between life and death is one bad decision, 3 or 4 inches

So many man my age have got P.T.S.D and I don't think that it's hit them

If you envision, the way that we're living

The things that we had seen, situations that we'd been in

You would understand why I don't wanna talk about my life in every song I've ever written

I really wanna help, but it's out of my control and jurisdiction

'Cause a lot of road yutes have got a sickness, mentally

[Verse 3]

Like, look

My mummy always used to tell me this

"David, listen when your older's speaking"

I know man that listened to their olders speaking

And now they're all life'd off and they don't know the reason

In a weird way summer is the coldest season

You'll get killed at a party for the smallest reason

One day you're chilling in secondary

Next day your right hand's a memory

So when I say that I'm alone, do you know the feeling?

When I say the game's over, do you know the meaning?

I mean that I don't have the time for this

I need a girl but same time there's no time for