Existential Ecstasy ft. Lucci Damus & Stewart Drake Lyrics

Too stubborn for a therapist

I ain't going to lie to you

Insurance would have covered it

But that ain't what I want to do

I been raw dogging life

My soul might have some STD's

I didn't kill myself as a teen

So fuck it ain't no stopping me

Now I'm awake

Ain't got no triggers but I'm taking names

And there's some days where I still feel the pain

Suicidal thoughts can all lick on my bag

Because I'm not going nowhere today

My angle has pivoted

I used to want to be famous

But I ain't and I live with it

Not even salty because I'm sick with it

Like I'm dehydrated like onions

My layers are infinite

Y'all Shrek with the green

I'm wrecking the scene

My breakfast the bean

My necklace obscene

My breath on the lean

Because I'm in Hell tripping

Your bitch like me because I'm heroin sticking

I've always been the loser with the big grin

One dimple

Cautiously up with my motherfucking thumb thimbled

I staple my smile until my days some simple

Then I drink caffeine until I crash like a drum cymbal

Call me Zaza I'll take every hit

Call me Papa because I'm about to split

Now I'm awake

Ain't got no triggers but I'm takin' names

And there's some days where I still feel the pain

Suicidal thoughts can all lick on my bag

Because I'm not going nowhere today

I've got a Megamind It's a big blue mess

In my glove box is a big new tech

Don't use a crutch I'm just off-kilter

Vomit all over my pop filter

So hold up wait

I don't relate to not a thing you've got to say

Because in this state I'm quick to grate

I'll manipulate what you incubate

Fuck cancel culture

I'll invite my momma and kids to see this like Look Y'all

I'll abort retorts like I went back in time

And killed your fetus to good applause

Now I'm awake

Ain't got no triggers but I'm takin' names

And there's some days where I still feel the pain

Suicidal thoughts can all lick on my bag

Because I'm not going nowhere today

Happy as Hell because I want to be

Took a pill of existential ecstasy

Sipping liquor by the liter

You don't got to see it to believe it

There's a reason you don't see me every season

Already know what's up they just want to judge

I don't want to see them anymore than I want to be them

I'm cracking another chugging the AM to the PM

Say that you love me but really know that I'm a heathen

Say that you with me because

You know I'm facing demons all evening

And it's hard to hear you when they all speaking

Say that you with me because

You know I'm facing demons all evening

And it's hard to hear you when they all speaking

Now I'm awake

Ain't got no triggers but I'm takin' names

And there's some days where I still feel the pain

Suicidal thoughts can all lick on my bag

Because I'm not going nowhere today

Happy as Hell because I want to be

Took a pill of existential ecstasy

Call me Zaza I'll take every hit

Call me Papa because I'm about to split