staying sober feels kinda weird Lyrics

I used to climb up a thousand miles

To get to where I wanna stay

Instead of giving me some space

I used to fight with a raging fist

For everything I have today

To only get it taken away

If nothing is forever

Why'd it leave a stain

That'll never wash away

And I'm standing here wondering what the hell did I do wrong

Everything that I've done has only helped me write this song

Got everything robbed, but now it's too late to call the cops

Everything's gone, need

someone to help me change the locks

I used to cry when my father turned

The television off at night

How little did I know at 9.

Now I'm sitting in silent tears

Cuz I haven't seen him in years

Now staying sober feels kinda weird

And if it's all for the better

Why does it feel wrong

That everyone's moving on

And I'm standing here wondering what the hell did I do wrong

Everything that I've done has only helped me write this song

Got everything robbed , but now it's too late to call the cops

If everything stops, why do we still keep growing up

Hurt me forget me

Cuz I can't feel nothing anymore

I'll promise to love me

Like I'm the girl I was when I was four