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You walk through front doors

And roll out the back

You place your stake deep

Then you take it back

Stuck on the side of road

Stuck on the side of love

All this shit inside got me torn up like orbitals

I've been through lots of shit

I've been through lots of beds

I've pictured many bullets

I've pictured many heads

I've pushed through suicidal thoughts many of which have fled

Don't mean to cause a panic

Don't plan to end up dead

It's just to let you know these thoughts have traveled through my head

And if you feel the same

Just know that you're not alone

I've fucking begged to bleed

It's no crime to atone

Funny I fear of death

I fear they'll often leave

And leave with no regrets

I fear that if I'm seen

As a fucking fraud

Of which I often fear

I'll be buried rot

In something close to years

And though they'll probably not

And though they'll probably not

Did you consider leaving?

Can you pick up the phone?

I'm no one new to grieving

Some days just feel so alone

I think I've overgrown

I think I'm leaving home

I think I'm over being

Such a dark star

I want to go, hit the globe with the lights on