Trying to keep my cool Lyrics

If I fall down and no one is a witness to the sickness

Did it happen if no one ever listened

And do I need permission

To feel something intensely

Indifferent to the drama

And I get it from my mama

Ain't no need to ever holler

And my daddy was a baller

Turned me into a shot caller

Every time I missed a dollar

I was wearing my shock collar

If I miss her lips I call her

Hoping we can make a daughter

And my family is my honor

You touch them then you're a goner

When I'm trying to keep my cool

I don't want to be a fool

And I don't want to seem fake

Or else they'll burn me at the stake

Forget about what happened

I just need someone who listens

To me gab about my faults and how I want to make a Different ruling

Every body tripping

Healing is so grueling

And they always sipping

On the thing that they be drooling over

And I want to try sewing up myself

I don't know if I can do it I might need a little help with the stitches

The scars are really itching

I just think if I could get it

It would really really really make a difference

When I'm trying to keep my cool

I don't want to be a fool

And I don't want to seem fake

Or else they'll burn me at the stake