Control Lyrics

It's been a while

I've been gone for quite a moment,

I don't know if you had noticed

But I'm back, writing songs

For me to sing alone in the dark

My time is almost out

I'm almost out of breath

And they're coming for my neck, yeah

Time is almost out

What will I become?

When all is said and done

I'd like to meet my monsters, have a talk

Ask them why I'm under their control

I asked for help and got none, after all

I'm to blame for all the pain I hold

Had a dream but can't fight for it

I need help but can't cry for it

I fear judgment, I'll lie for it

Shut them all out, they wonder why I'm so distant

Thought that I just need fixing

They can't understand that I'm different

Gave me shame I held so deep in, they

Made me blame myself for existing

Who the fuck am I supposed to be pissed at?

Whose fault is it? It's the whole system

They can't help, I'm not worth assistance

They can't help, they ain't even listening

It gets hard being optimistic

I'm too flawed to trust my instincts

Hope my demons don't get to win this fight

I'd like to meet my monsters, in the dark

Ask them why I'm under their control

I asked for help and got none, after all

I'm to blame for all the pain I hold (monsters, have a talk)

(Under their control)

Pain I hold (got none, after all)

Pain I hold (monsters)

(Under)

Pain I hold (got none)

I'm to blame for all the pain I hold