Finding Serenity Lyrics

I've been told that I got room to be selfish so I'm gonna make the whole room mine, got shit to say you can shelf it

Cause I done felt it last time they pushed me out of my emotions

Now my closure's showing me that I could leave people melting

I was fucked with since my freshman year and they still be thriving

While everyday I slowly drift away and feel like I'm dying

And I can't talk about it all my friends had left me in the dust

I'm concussed smash my head against the walls until it bust

I can get up on a mic and say my feelings but these people I tried hard with they can't let me be real and

I gotta lock it up cause I come out they don't get the meaning

Then I'm just locked away my pen and page turntable I'm fiening

For something in return cause I get nothing I'm selfish

And I was locked up in my room cause I was afraid to be jealous

I guess I'm a hypocrite you're indifferent to me I can tell it

Yeah I screamed in your face the shit you did to me hellish

I've been told that I got room to be selfish so I'm gonna make the whole room mine, got shit to say you can shelf it

Cause I done felt it last time they pushed me out of my emotions

Now my closure's showing me that I could leave people melting

I was fucked with since my freshman year and they still be thriving

While everyday I slowly drift away and feel like I'm dying

And I can't talk about it all my friends had left me in the dust

I'm concussed smash my head against the walls until it bust

Was I just nothing put a gun up to my head I'm something

All you motherfuckers really bloodsuckers

You vampires bite on my balls and suck my dick

I only needed a friend and all you ghosts done gave me shit

I put some emotion up in the track

And all you ever said was I'm a fag

And now I get up and could spit a rap and all they tell me is I'm on pussy shit and the lyrics sounding whack