A Hope Resumed Lyrics

I'm returning to the well I've poisoned with thirst unending

A hole inside a home left barren

I'm trying but I'm dying

I'm returning from the hell I've chosen with words confessing

A message from the undeserving

Of digging trenches and second chances

The universe was at the tip of my pen

The true and cursed separated up in my head

Nothing to it at first

Did what my parents did

Quoted chapter and verse while

Lying in my bed

It used to give me hope

It used to give me strength

It used to give me what I always needed

A way that I could cope

A way that I could change

A way to regain all the ground conceded

It's not confidential

That I wish I could still believe

Wish I could plant again

Wish I could be the man

I always thought I'd be but I'm still waiting

I've been erasing and replacing all the things that I once loved

Starting with the idealized revision of my childhood

You got this you got this

Don't think about it

Be the animal

With matches it catches and thrashes 'til silently the ashes fall

It used to give me hope

It used to give me strength

It used to give me what I always needed

A way that I could cope

A way that I could change

A way to regain all the ground conceded

It's not confidential

That I wish I could still believe

Wish I could plant again

Wish I could be the man

I always thought I'd be but I'm still waiting

Then words as old

As dust and stone

Renew in my soul

To whom shall we go

Then words as old

As dust and stone

Renew in my soul

To whom shall we go

I'm returning to the well I've poisoned

With thirst unending

A hole inside a home left barren

I'm trying but I'm dying

Can't prove the things I feel

Can't say my faith is steel

But I'm rebuilding on a land reseeded

The hope was always real

My strength and change are real

And these are things I know I've always needed

It feels exponential

The gains I make when unchained

I feel the hope again

That there's a bigger plan

I'll never prove it but I can't deny it