depressive psychosis Lyrics

I been talking to myself

I been fucking up my health

Living day by day in hell

Killing brain cells taking pills

Taking drugs and smoking blunts

I do too much I feel no love

As I look up I don't feel nothing

I'm way too numb my life is done

Soon I'll be dead runs through my mother fucking head

These tears I shed as I lay in bed

All of these meds give me more fucking dread

Life is a test I've failed I fucking guess

I just can't stand to be a man

No I won't land on my feet again

I had a chance but I had no plan

Now I'm in a trance off a couple a Xans

To end my life would be sublime

Because my mind's killing me inside

Delusions try to make me mother fucking cry

Thoughts amplified when I am high

I been talking to myself

I been fucking up my health

Living day by day in hell

Killing brain cells taking pills

Everyday my mind refrains

From fucking change stuck in my ways

I do the same thing day by day

'Cause I'm insane I've lost my brain

I'm not alone these voices don't

Leave me they hold on tightly so

I can't breath no they won't fucking let go

I've lost my hope so I smoke dope

On that codeine promethazine

'Cause I'm a fiend a damn junkie

That cannot see beyond my needs

I need to be smoking my weed

Or I will loose my fucking cool

Just like a fool my life is screwed

I speak the truth what can I do

I'm sniffing glue my times past due

I been talking to myself

I been fucking up my health

Living day by day in hell

Killing brain cells taking pills