anymore (demo) Lyrics

How I've desperately tried to be best friends with my own mother

Though she said that she don't want us in their town

Met a guy online he liked me I thought we could love each other

But everytime he came too close I'd drown

And I thought I could reach anything

I worked hard but it all seemed so desperate to me

I was told that when I'm older I would learn to love my body

But with every other year I know I won't

My friends find themselves in children, in their families and lovers

Do they know that I don't see myself at all

And I'm scared that my friends

Mean well but still fail to understand what I'm going through

I'm tired of lonely floors

The thing that they don't see is

What if I don't wanna live life

Anymore

Some say that I'm unthankful

I don't wanna hurt my soulmates

But you also can't live life for someone else

I'm scared of sunday evenings

'Cause when I can't take the pain no more

I lock the bathroom door and hurt myself

And I'm scared that my friends

Mean well but still fail to understand what I'm going through

I'm tired of lonely floors

The thing that they don't see is

What if I don't wanna live life

Anymore